God I just wish I could make things happen for people.

I wish I could unpack your stuff Jayd.

I wish I could make Mr.Stoned something for you Renee.

But I can't even make things happen for myself.

I hate the world. I fucking hate it. I hate what he turned me into, I hate the feeling that I can't go over to Ne's house without a valuable reason. I hate the fact that I can't do anything for her and it's always her helping me. And me crying to her. Fuck that shit because I can't do anything for her. Renee what can I do for you?

I hate my school. I hate being stalked. I hate wanting people to love me so bad that I tear myself apart because god there must be something wrong with me. I hate wanting people. I hate the way I need constant comfort. I hate the way i can't do anything for myself. How weak I am. How stupid I am. How I bet if I died it would make the world better for everyone else. I hate the fact that nobody can fucking put up with me. i hate the fact that I feel like all I can do is love people but then get the feeling of no love back. I hate the feeling of wanting someone to give a fuck about me. I hate the feeling. I hate it. I hope my wrists get slashed and my stomach gets eaten up with pills. And I hope a bullet bursts through my brain. And I hope someone cries when I die.