I'm calm cool and collected but you know.

I hate how when I get close to someone I back up. And when they get closer to connect again I run away. For God's sake can't I be a good friend. I'm doing it to Nate...we're not even close...that's what I believe to be true...that's why I'm walking away. But I don't want to

I can't believe I let myself fall that hard. I can't believe I am still stuck. I don't understand. I wasn't even happy then. But it's worse now but....I wasn't happy then...

I can be happy now. I say I'm gonna do all these things but I never do. I remember when it was back in the old days when we were just friends...not even friends...not then...but anyways

I remember back at Rio when the girls were beautiful and we "ruled the school" when popularity was less of a deal and everyone knew each other...when a rumor could be spread in one period...when we were all friends in one way or another...all just friends